I'm adrift right now....lost in a sea of unknowns.
I'm not feeling very strong, or very sure of myself. I feel like I am losing, and have lost- much of what I love in life. In several ways.
I feel like I have lost, over the past couple years, much of what I love about myself. Some of this loss was unconscious, and some was in what I felt was sacrifice.... "the greater good" type thing.
I feel as if I have lost my ability to see--- and it's recently returned; I'm disoriented and frightened and overwhelmed. It's like going from being in the dark all the time to being in the children's toy aisle somewhere and the assault of noises, bright colors, activity and chaos is just too much, too soon.
I'm trying to make choices and decisions that I feel are best...however--- I don't know what my destination or goal is right now--- so those decisions are tough to measure as to what I want to accomplish with them.
I'm very very lost right now. I have a hole in my heart- I feel as if I'm missing everything from my shoulders to my waist- just some hollow ribs running around trying to do things without being able to feel too much because it hurts.
I don't like this. Just for the record.
I'm not feeling very strong, or very sure of myself. I feel like I am losing, and have lost- much of what I love in life. In several ways.
I feel like I have lost, over the past couple years, much of what I love about myself. Some of this loss was unconscious, and some was in what I felt was sacrifice.... "the greater good" type thing.
I feel as if I have lost my ability to see--- and it's recently returned; I'm disoriented and frightened and overwhelmed. It's like going from being in the dark all the time to being in the children's toy aisle somewhere and the assault of noises, bright colors, activity and chaos is just too much, too soon.
I'm trying to make choices and decisions that I feel are best...however--- I don't know what my destination or goal is right now--- so those decisions are tough to measure as to what I want to accomplish with them.
I'm very very lost right now. I have a hole in my heart- I feel as if I'm missing everything from my shoulders to my waist- just some hollow ribs running around trying to do things without being able to feel too much because it hurts.
I don't like this. Just for the record.
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