I realized something as I go back over my posts......
...first, no matter what happens in my life, I retain my sense of humor. Second......
I complain. A. Lot.
As I read back over my posts....and I think about some of the blogs I follow- I realize that complaining makes up quite a bit of the blogosphere....and the popular blogs. Given---you can throw humor, and profanity in there and get a bigger audience....but...all in all; complaining is like sex- it sells.
So, here's how it is, folks: I'm done complaining.
I love my children- they are wonderful and I have no reason to complain about the fact they are alive, healthy, whole, gorgeous and very much like their mother. They are two miracles and Lord, thank you.
I love, absolutely love, my husband. From the top of his curly-black-haired-head, to his always-baby-smooth feet....I do. Flaws and all. Even with the dozen things he has/does that make me nuts- there's not a man on this earth that I could or would love more. Even now. Today. June 9, 2010. I still love him with every beat of my heart, every breath in my lungs, every ounce of me. Always.
I love my dog.
I love my cats.
I'm learning to love Durango again.
I'm learning it's OK not to deal with my family. They can't interact in a way that is positive- and I don't have to waste the energy.
I'm learning I have carried a LOT of baggage, for a long time. No wonder I'm so damn tired.
I've been unpacking for a while now...and I'm making progress. No. more. complaining.
I'm thankful I now know what is going on inside of my body.
I'm glad I know how to manage it.
One day at a time. Each day.....just that day. Let yesterday go, and tomorrow will come when it is ready.
I love my friends. Each. And. Every. One.
Holy cow I have amazing friends. Some I've had my whole life.
MY WHOLE LIFE.
Even with everything I dish out- some of them are still here.
That's the most wonderful thing...really.
Most importantly....MOST MOST MOST importantly....I'm remembering who I am...and I love me.
Really. I had forgotten that. Bitch, bitch, bitch......and I forgot I loved me...who I am.
I really can't 'should' on myself.
I'm glad I'm finding this.
I'm done complaining.
(deep breath) [big smile]
-Taj
...first, no matter what happens in my life, I retain my sense of humor. Second......
I complain. A. Lot.
As I read back over my posts....and I think about some of the blogs I follow- I realize that complaining makes up quite a bit of the blogosphere....and the popular blogs. Given---you can throw humor, and profanity in there and get a bigger audience....but...all in all; complaining is like sex- it sells.
So, here's how it is, folks: I'm done complaining.
I love my children- they are wonderful and I have no reason to complain about the fact they are alive, healthy, whole, gorgeous and very much like their mother. They are two miracles and Lord, thank you.
I love, absolutely love, my husband. From the top of his curly-black-haired-head, to his always-baby-smooth feet....I do. Flaws and all. Even with the dozen things he has/does that make me nuts- there's not a man on this earth that I could or would love more. Even now. Today. June 9, 2010. I still love him with every beat of my heart, every breath in my lungs, every ounce of me. Always.
I love my dog.
I love my cats.
I'm learning to love Durango again.
I'm learning it's OK not to deal with my family. They can't interact in a way that is positive- and I don't have to waste the energy.
I'm learning I have carried a LOT of baggage, for a long time. No wonder I'm so damn tired.
I've been unpacking for a while now...and I'm making progress. No. more. complaining.
I'm thankful I now know what is going on inside of my body.
I'm glad I know how to manage it.
One day at a time. Each day.....just that day. Let yesterday go, and tomorrow will come when it is ready.
I love my friends. Each. And. Every. One.
Holy cow I have amazing friends. Some I've had my whole life.
MY WHOLE LIFE.
Even with everything I dish out- some of them are still here.
That's the most wonderful thing...really.
Most importantly....MOST MOST MOST importantly....I'm remembering who I am...and I love me.
Really. I had forgotten that. Bitch, bitch, bitch......and I forgot I loved me...who I am.
I really can't 'should' on myself.
I'm glad I'm finding this.
I'm done complaining.
(deep breath) [big smile]
-Taj
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